My Scare

So a month ago my dad complains about having some shortness of breath. We all attribute it to the humidity and pass it off like it's no big deal. We do of course have him go see a doctor. The first doctor tells him that he has to go get a series of tests done. I guess the doctor saw something he didn't like. So he sends my dad for a second round of tests. Finally, he sends my dad to a hospital for an angiogram (which for those of you who don't know is a very invasive procedure).

So longer story shorter my dad has two majorly blocked arteries on either side of his heart. One had a stent put in and the other was too small to do anything with other than medicate, watch what he eats, and lose weight. While we were in the hospital, we found out that in the last year my dad had a mild heart attack and he didn't tell anyone about it.

Everything was fine and then all of a sudden it seemed as though my stability cracked under me. We had a house fire in my parent's house almost two years ago and have finally managed to get past it (although my parents still have scars and pain as reminders). But now, just as everything was getting back to normal, this rocks our family.

It just reminds me how precious life is and how anything can happen at anytime to shake it up. To not take life or anyone for granted. It's sad that people have to go through things like these to be grateful, but I suppose that's why everyone endures the bad along with the good...

When is the right time to....

call it quits in a relationship?

Some of my closest friends have been in long term relationships and have cheated on their significant others-sometimes on more than one occassion with different people. Should they have called it quits before they cheated? What caused them to cheat? How do we know when is the right time?

Should you do it if you are having fights? Fights-no one likes em but they are inevitable because of human nature. Everyone gets on everyone elses nerves once in a while. Everyone has their own opinion. So should you break up with someone because of fighting?

Should you do it if you want to cheat? If you are with someone, then shouldn't it be enough to be just with that ONE? Why is it that you would need another? And no I'm not talking about looking-everyone is human and if they see a good looking person, they can look. It is when one goes beyond the looking that we step over that fine line.

Should you do it if there isn't a chance of a future? Not that I'm saying that you have to be seeing wedding bells, but having some thoughts of at least some minute future with the person your with should be there. Even if it is you seeing a commercial for a movie and thinking about going to see it with your significant other once it comes out. Of course as time goes on in the relationship, I would hope it would get to be on more serious thoughts!

So anyone have an answer?....

Schools out...for the Summer!

So I'm finally done with school. So as the cliche goes...no more pencils, no more books, no more teacher's dirty looks...

Anyway, excited to be starting a new position in second grade. BUT the only problem is, I haven't been able to settle into my new room. Why not? Because the teacher that used to have my classroom is still moving her crap out. So now I have to spend my summer not only learning the new curriculum and getting ready for September in between taking professional development courses, but I have to go organize and clean out my room from her crap and settle my stuff in.

There is a reason for my ranting-I promise...it brought me to think about The question of how do we know that an opportunity we partake in is indeed the correct one? Will we ever know?

Where is this coming from is what you must be thinking. Well, to give you some background, in June I was offered a position at another elementary school in the same district I am currently teaching in. So what's wrong with being offered a position? Nothing except for the fact that I already accepted the offer of the second grade at the first school.

So what's the problem? Two great schools offering me a position, I should be jumping for joy (and I was happy-to some extent). My main concern was the fact that I preferred working in the school that made the second offer (I have worked and traveled to both schools so I am able to say that I prefer one over the other). However, I cannot burn bridges with one principal or stir up trouble after all I have only been with the district for half a year. So what was I to do? After a long internal debate, talking with the parents, the boyfriend, and some confidant teacher, I sucked it up and stuck with the original school.

Even though it is not my ideal situation, I know in life we don't always get into ideal situations. I will, of course, make the best out of it and work my butt off for myself and most importantly for the kids. But once again, will I ever know if the decision I made was the correct one for me? Probably not.

So I leave you with a question...When left to make a decision, how do we know (if we even do ever know) that the decision we made is the right one?